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@ 31 July 2009 : 7/31/2009 08:44:00 pm

a post basically to sum up these 2 weeks i guess, a nice ending to the month of july. well, a lot has been happening over these few days, but i really thank God for all that he has managed to share with me, as well as emphaisised to me.

God basically brought me back to the point whereby he reminded me that we are in God's great plans, that he longs to shape us in ways that will reflect His glory and fufill His purpose in your generation. every single time i experience a failure, it just adds to my drifting away from God. thank goodness God always welcome me back with open arms. God wants the best for us, and not second best, but we can be ruined in the Potter's hand, according to our submission and resistance to the author. how true. it is interesting to know that God actually blesses us according to our ways,according to the fruit of our doings. our character determines what God can and cannot make of us. it is not like the plan that he actually had in the beginning will just fall into place, but He will only make the best of what we give Him to work with. looks like i have to learn that my dream may not be part of God's great plan for me, and that i have to learn how to put God as my centre of my attention, learn how to use Him as my reference point in whatever i do. at the end of the day, it is all about trust, trust and trust. just like how God reminds us to be strong and courageous, to be strong and courageous, and to be strong and very courageous.

sometimes i just wonder, why do people judge so much? is it by human nature? i have seen a lot of these these few days. even i feel that i am doing it myself. why we can't we just learn how to accept other people's flaws? you think you are so great, but have you actually realised that when you b**** about other people behind their backs, people are doing that to you too? what for? it is not as if people have great compliments about you, but rather, complains. i am trying my best to treat you nicely, and i am not expecting you to reciprocate at the same level, but just be nicer to the people around you. come on, be more mature in your thinking. if something has happened between you and somebody, don't just immediately push the blame to the other party. stop and think, think if your actions have drew flak from the other party. think of the amount of effort that you have put in maintaining the relationship. you want something to happen, but you don't want to put in the sufficient effort. it is not going to happen man. if you really want the kind of improvement, then please, put in the effort you should. it is really disappointing to see the situation like that.

i have a new love- volleyball. it is really fun to play it as a class, especially when you hear the screams, cheers and laughter. i really hope that i get to master the game soon.

speaking of sports, i have decided to drop my squash training to once per week, just for my studies. well, i don't have much of a choice do i? even though i am disappointed that i have to give up my passion,not totally, but like what stevenn said, i have to set my priorities right.

oh well, i am so thankful to have stevenn as a friend. at least he cares for me and he is harsh with me when he needs to. but at the same time, he does encourage me a lot and i always never fail to brighten up whenever i see him. thanks stevenn for that harsh advice from you. it really sounded similar to eddie, but yours was worse. haha. but you helped me think clearly. you don't know how grateful am i towawrds you. yup.

anyway, ct investiture has been confirmed, and i am emceeing with nicholas. can't imagine how funny the rehearsals will get. today's practice was like a joke already, i think tomorrow's one will be worse. haha

and to end on a lighter note, i am playing squash with my brother jia jin tomorrow. can't wait(: