God.let everything turn out right.everything.i'm tired.worn out.frustrated.emotional.
i miss the ever once cheerful me.
i need a comforting hug...and a listening ear..
@ 30 October 2008 : 10/30/2008 10:14:00 pm
yesterday: well, went to school early in the morning to submit gpf and op slide handouts. as usual, someone did not turn up on time again and had the cheek to ask me to forge his/her signature. cleaned the classrooms that we were assigned to, and for once, i felt i used a lot of energy in cleaning classes in my 11 years of education. wow. something dumb happened anyway. someone apparently was pouring dirty water into the toilet bowl, then the cloth happened to got flushed in as well. that person panicked, and another two people had to try their best to help find it using those toilet brush (i call it the toilet sucker) but actually all along it was already travelling somewhere in the pipe. the toilet auntie could guess what happened and she was laughing non stop. omg.
headed to macs after that with jeanette and jiayan.apparently we could not stay there and study, so we headed back to school library to study chinese. mad joined us a while later and we ended up chit chatting, but trying out very best to keep our voices low. well, i found out something VERY SHOCKING. it's best not to say though. we headed to outside the staffroom at first, and met wu lao shi, who came to 'spotcheck' on us. and then we adjourned to the canteen because it was cooler there. well, we were supposed to talk more, but we ended up studying instead. LOL. they left at 2 plus while i went back to library to study with eddie and kristle. well, half the time eddie was being an 'irritating' crapper beside me, and always 'aruging' with kristle. 'handsome' noob. HAHA. something dumb happened.
eddie: * suddenly stands up and drinks water* kristle & i: *looks up* *shocked face* some girl: eh eddie........(i don't know what his friend said) eddie: *puts down his bottle* *takes out his windbreaker* *and SHASHAYS down the library aisle* (omg so gay..no la..he did not shashay..he just walked in a funny way) kristle & i: *broke into fits of laughter*
many dumb things happened after that. i can't even remember any more of them because there were simply too many.it's fun studying with the both of them. went to eat tau huey after that with eddie and had a good talk with him along the way. it's nice talking to you after a long day you know! makes me feel better when i tell you stuff..thanks, my good friend who always disturbs me but never fails to bring a smile to my face!
today: today was chinese a levels.i would say that the paper was comparable to promos.so i think everyone can roughly guess the difficulty level of it. even if eddie and kristle says that it is difficult, aha, then i wonder about the rest. headed for some open house briefing,then a short op rehearsal,before heading to bus stop to wait for bus to town, and waiting for huifang. so meanwhile, there were like 3 crazy girls beside me posing all sorts of signature, including the classic 'tammy' pose. and minghui's house-warming.that was a classic too. LOL. saw stevenn and rj, and well,they boarded the 105 that we were supposed to board. so tammy and i were disturbing the both of them..hahas.sorry stevenn! meet up with tammy,rj and me when you come back to singapore ok! headed to shaw for hsm3. the movie is great! still, there is one movie i must watch this year besides hsm3--twilight! can't wait~ walked to far east,and on our way to wisma,i realised i dropped my phone.luckily i could retrieve my phone due to this very nice couple! phew~
to you: hey.have i hurt you? if i have,then i am trulysorry. it's worrying seeing you treating me like that.
@ 28 October 2008 : 10/28/2008 05:28:00 pm
my lovely class-0820!!!!
@ : 10/28/2008 04:00:00 pm
congrats to jeanette for winning 2nd in the solo category for inter house piano competition! and congrats to both jeanette and jiayan for winning 2nd in the duet category! *claps hands*
as you can see, these two dears were basically very happy and decided me to be their camerawoman for today to satisfy their camwhoring needs. and look at their mega watt smiles:D
well, they were trying to uhm..uh hmm..*coughs* act _ _ _ _ (fill in the blanks) and well, did not turn out really badly. can improve la! HAHA!
meanwhile...
levina got really fascinated by jiayan's sponge bob pouch and so decided to do that above. -.- LOL.
and well,she ended up playing with reg's piglet because piglet's cuter than spongebob (no offence to spongebob fans!!!). hahas. and see the chio bus above?
oh ya..saw eddie's new hairstyle, or rather new haircut first thing i stepped into the parade square for assembly today. eh dude! it's not too bad what! so don't say that you look ugly every time after a haircut. and you don't have to bury your face in your hands nor use a paper bag. HAHA. it's quite nice ok? but rather funny too..LOL. i want to talk to you again during lunch la! like when will you be free...........?
dang, stubborn friend just smacked me today.AGAIN.where does he get all the energy to smack me when he is so tied up with stuff? argh. it was painful! :'(
just found out something from sis today, and well, i am not all that surprised with what happened. i am just feeling sad for that person.
i miss tammy! she did not come to school today. she had a fever, sigh. hurry up and get well soon k fellow dino!
got to go do chinese now....toodles!
@ 27 October 2008 : 10/27/2008 09:44:00 pm
went to church early in the morning yesterday. my uncle's family came. woots! met best friend in church. all the best for o levels ok! headed to changi village hawker centre again, and had my usual favourite food and drink-- wanton mee and pineapple drink!! :))
okay,my mum has this fetish for this bittergourd cum spare ribs noodles. well, i took a small bite of it..and well, not really to my liking but at the very least it was not bitter. hee.
you see,guys get along so well together when it comes to nintendo or psp. and without that lovely machines,well............you get C-H-A-O-S.
oh oh! my other uncle's family came as well..and see my UBER UBER adorable cousin! so cute right!!!!! i know jia yan will be very jealous of me..HAHA!
today:
lunched with wai kin at plaza sing today..sorry friend! i did not know you were so tired..then i still had you come out and shopped with me..must sleep more ok? then at least won't be so siao like you were in carrefour..HAHA! anyway,thanks for all your gift ideas..although some were absolutely off.LOL!
oh ya! STUBBORN FRIEND! you put a smile on my face today, eh wait, a few smiles! see,proud of yourself or not! die die also must go out at least ONCE during holidays ok?
time for chinese...!
@ 25 October 2008 : 10/25/2008 06:20:00 pm
i just received the long awaited nanyang film fest photos..and here they are!
seeing this photos really bring back a lot of memories,and here are just some hearfelt gratitude words to all the people who have helped to make it a success--
dingjie: you have been a great president,doing all the editing for us..keep up the good job! :D
weiwei: you did well as the lead actress! stay bubbly and thanks for all your listening ear throughout that period.you know what i mean.(:
yida: thanks for all the help that you have rendered in filming. you did a good job as the lead and you know we appreciate you a lot.(:
eugene: professional rapist! hahas..done a good job in acting you know.and of course, we appreciate you as much as we appreciate yida.(:
the rest of film art: good job guys and work harder for the next film fest!
eddie: hahas.my last minute helper for the film! thanks so much for bringing me joy during the filming process with ww despite ng-ing many times! :D
jiajin: another GOOD friend that i can count on! thanks for being a blessing to my team! you were a natural, and guess what! my friends say you look handsome..HAHA!
amos: personal helper for handling equipment! thank you!
council(jamie, zhiyuan, lilan, yingchen, elysia, yuean, louis, april, chunfui, mingwei, chunleong and those that came): thanks for 'lending' yi da to us for the filming.you guys have been really supportive! especially jamie and zhiyuan!
ny clique: thanks for deciding to come at the last min! you guys totally ROCK!
jocelyn jie: you came! so happy~ thanks for supporting me and lub ya!
justin: you know i appreciated you for coming(:
janice: babe! thanks for the surprise..i was truly glad you came! love ya sis!
venessa: thanks jie for walking together with me to the bus stop that day..and hearing me complain about not having enough time to study for the econs test the next day..( i still failed anyway)
gavin: ahaha.my kor who just went when i asked him at the last min..you rock!
i miss film fest..loads.
@ 23 October 2008 : 10/23/2008 09:17:00 pm
slept at 2a.m this morning because of pw..and woke up at 6.15 to prepare for school. well, i did not really srping out of bed, but more of dragged myself out of the bed with my eyes 3/4 closed. i have been staying up till the wee hours of the morning everyday for the past few weeks..think i lost count on how many weeks were that. so you should be surprised as to how i managed to survive through school each day without having to fall asleep during pw or even lectures.
anyway,stupid weird stuff happened to me today.
stupid stuff no.1 *walks towards bookshop,messaging on the phone* girl: gui ah gui ah! (sounds familiar?) eddie: *walks behind quickly* se me la! wo bu shi gui me: *continues walking* *looks up and sees him* *looks down* eddie: *looks up and saw me* eh! zhen de you gui la! gui! lynette: *bursts in fits* EDDIE GAN!
stupid stuff no.2 Tammy: Hey the guy I think break off with his gf le Regina: OH..Is it the long hair girl? Tammy: Yahh that one Regina: Break off le ahhs? Tammy: I think so ahhs, last time see them everytime together one, now like dont have le lehhs Then as Regina and Tammy was busy talking, I suddenly cut into their conversation and said these Me:YAH! He married le..just married Tammy & Regina: MARRIED? Me: Yahh Mr Tan(I think) just married this year mahhs Tammy & Regina" Cheh! what mr tan married, we talking about the one of the J2 Guys lahhs. Married? Scare us lehh...so young married wad?! all 3 of us: *LAUGH non stop*
anyway, had a tiring day of pw again..and guess what, i had an interesting convo with a good friend,who really cheered me up!
lynette. says: how was your dry run tdy btw Good Good says: the 1st one i screw up Good Good says: cos i totally miss 1 slide Good Good says: den i confuse the slide clicker Good Good says: and the audience can hear me say "oh Shit" Good Good says: LOL Good Good says: but 2nd one Good Good says: i was much better Good Good says: (: lynette. says: hai yo lynette. says: you ah lynette. says: funny la (i laughed) Good Good says: lol lynette. says: luckily you were btr in the 2nd one Good Good says: yup lynette. says: otherwise history would have repeated itself Good Good says: lol Good Good says: urs is tml rite? lynette. says: then i wil laugh at you for that for quite a while lynette. says: ya lynette. says: sigh Good Good says: gaga Good Good says: haha Good Good says: jiayou for tml Good Good says: jus rmb tt no matter how bad u are Good Good says: cannot be worse den me (i laughed) lynette. says: hee hee lynette. says: of course lynette. says: hahas lynette. says: no la Good Good says: hmm u gt memorise script? lynette. says: i think you should have done fine Good Good says: i gt confidence tt u will do well for op la Good Good says: u look sound those very gd in speaking de lynette. says: well..considering the fact that i have been sleeping at 1, 2a,m for the past 2 weeks..do you think i have the time to memorise my script lynette. says: whoa lynette. says: so kan de qi wo lynette. says: (: Good Good says: LOL Good Good says: okok Good Good says: lol of cos mah (smiles) lynette. says: wow lynette. says: serious lynette. says: so kan de qi wo (smiles again) Good Good says: lol yea la Good Good says: u very pro lynette. says: no lor lynette. says: na li na li Good Good says: haha Good Good says: u dun believe den nvm lor (i laughed) lynette. says: hahas lynette. says: joking la lynette. says: of course i believe you lynette. says: but you are no worse than me lynette. says: i think you have quite an apt fluency in terms of spoken language lynette. says: just that i don't know why you speak to me rather softly lynette. says: as if i will eat you up or something lynette. says: hahas lynette. says: joking joking Good Good says: thnx Good Good says: maybe i was just nervous lor Good Good says: lol no las Good Good says: ok next time i try speak louder in front of u Good Good says: my presentation volume still ok lynette. says: presentation leh lynette. says: don't speak louder will only penalise yourself Good Good says: ok lynette. says: yup lynette. says: so next time i talk to you btr have a significant difference hor Good Good says: not significant Good Good says: gradual lynette. says: huh lynette. says: gradual lynette. says: omg lynette. says: how long will you take to have a significant difference then Good Good says: lol Good Good says: it will be so gradual u cant tell tt there is a significant change lynette. says: thanks hor (i laughed) lynette. says: purposely one righ lynette. says: right* Good Good says: nope Good Good says: purposely one left (-.-..then i laughed again) lynette. says: ...................ok whatever lynette. says: i just learnt a new fact about you today lynette. says: you can actually be quite a lame and comical guy at the same time Good Good says: lol Good Good says: gd u are learning fast Good Good says: just ask my classmates (i laughed..again!) Good Good says: ^^ lynette. says: you can't be serious lynette. says: guess what was my first impression of you Good Good says: lazsy to guess la lynette. says: i thought that you were more of a shy and introvert guy Good Good says: haah ok.. Good Good says: my 1st impression of u is pretty much still the same as now lynette. says: and that is? lynette. says: i think it is quite bad Good Good says: lol Good Good says: i tht u were lynette Good Good says: and today u are still lynette (i laughed..AGAIN!) lynette. says: -.- lynette. says: -.- lynette. says: thanks ar Good Good says: no prob lynette. says: what's that supposed to mean?! (laughed) Good Good says: i was just being polite Good Good says: XD Good Good says: unless u meant sth else lynette. says: yes very polite indeed Good Good says: thank you lynette. says: i think you can practically imagine my face Good Good says: lol of cos can (laughed) lynette. says: on the verge of strangling you now Good Good says: i see ur face alot times b4 mah (-.-..then laughed) lynette. says: ........................................... lynette. says: ok i give up lynette. says: this conversation is seriously getting nowhere Good Good says: really meh? Good Good says: i tht it was going quite smoothly (-.-..and laughed again!) lynette. says: oh gosh.................................. lynette. says: i just learnt another new fact Good Good says: jk la lynette. says: you seriously like disturbing people Good Good says: lol not really la lynette. says: incld your pw grp mates Good Good says: okok sry lynette. says: no meh Good Good says: if it bohers u so much i'll stop lynette. says: no no no lynette. says: you really made me laugh Good Good says: lol dun bluff (smiled) lynette. says: really Good Good says: nvm la Good Good says: it is cool lynette. says: hahas lynette. says: hey lynette. says: do you know that i had a tiring day lynette. says: and i was very sian lynette. says: and look, you cheered me up! lynette. says: (: Good Good says: lol a few words only... lynette. says: but really lynette. says: your that few words really cheered me up! Good Good says: lol ok lor Good Good says: u sure not? i dun really believe Good Good says: lynette. says: sure lynette. says: 100% lynette. says: plus guarantee lynette. says: plus cho lynette. says: chop* Good Good says: okok Good Good says: i get it lynette. says: hahas
SEE! YOU CHEERED ME UP! thanks!
to you: pls.cheer up will you? as your good friend, it hurts to see you in pain.
@ 22 October 2008 : 10/22/2008 09:23:00 pm
what's happening to everyone lately? i have been seeing more and more friends getting emo..sigh. i hope it was not the after effects of my emotional trauma the past weeks.
to my good friend: hey. what happened to that cheerful and crazy you just a few days back? what happened to your strength and courage to move on with life? what happened to your determination to learn how to pick yourself up from falls and your openess to share your problems? lost it,you might mutter to yourself. and why? due to the 'insurmountable' problem(s) that you are facing now. no one knows what your heart is feeling or what your mind is thinking. it is all up to you to conquer your troubles,as well as conquer yourself as a person. and you know you can do it.it is just that you do not dare to take that step to face reality. it is without much guess that not many people know what you are going through now, but do not forget, you have many friends around you that do care for you, and that definitely includes me. if you need a shoulder to cry on or just to lean on,i can always lend it to you,no doubt. if you need a listening ear to rant,complain or just to share,it will always be opened willingly. it is your decision on whether you want to pour out or to bottle up.
you know,from afar today,i could hear your laughter. if i could sense that the laughter was filled with joy, then no doubt i would have felt relieved that you are in a good mood. if i could sense that the laughter had tinges of sadness encompassed in it,then i obviously would have felt worried for you. guess which one did i sense? the former or the latter?
i just want you to remember this: even if the whole world seems like it is going to crash upon you anytime, you feel worn out and you are on the verge of giving up, do not forget that there will be someone by your side, rooting for you and supporting the world from crashing upon you. ultimately,it will still be your final decision as to whether you will turn to this friend. or you will just mask yourself, and mask against your heart.
i hope i have not hurt your fragile heart.
@ 21 October 2008 : 10/21/2008 05:47:00 pm
friend: you know what.don't worry.that person will let go.trust me.it may take time,but that person will eventually let go.it's tough for that person to let go at this stage,so just be patient and wait.okay?
went to j8 with a good friend today.hahas.it was really nerve wrecking.well,both of us know why.
my auntie just caught a lizard and apparently my brothers are being freaked out by it. as for me, well, i just remained calm and composed.
JUNYAN: thanks for your milo treat! (:
@ : 10/21/2008 12:01:00 am
i told a friend,who was feeling tired of school and pw,this:
"i guess there is something that personally keeps me coming back to school with excitement everyday, and that is to enjoy being in the company of my friends, whether they are sharing my joy or sorrow"
i can't believe i could come up with this when my head was spinning and i was very very tired.
@ 20 October 2008 : 10/20/2008 10:19:00 pm
JUNYAN!
I AM SO PROUD OF YOUR DECISION
AND SO PROUD TO HAVE YOU AS A FRIEND.
YOU DID THE RIGHT THING.
AND IT'S WORTH PRAISING!
my head's spinning.argh.
@ 19 October 2008 : 10/19/2008 08:28:00 pm
NOW I AM PISSED
BECAUSE OF THAT ONE IDIOT.
@ : 10/19/2008 06:22:00 pm
I AM SO HAPPY.
WHY?
BECAUSE MY STUBBORN FRIEND IS HAPPY.
(:
anyway,just want to tell you this.never forget that there are people around you who truly care for you as a friend,and that they are the people that you can turn to when you are in need.so,all of us hope to see a happy and crazy you again.and i definitely look forward to seeing you disturbing me everyday again.
anyway, went to AMK hub for dinner-ichiban sushi.i guess because of all the stress i have been experiencing this past month,i had quite a good appetite today,to my surprise.had like 6 plates of sushi i think.oh my.i love ichiban's fried salmon skin! totally rocks! so all of us were eating and eating and talking,and we chalked up well,35 plates.
see.point proven.
so after filling our stomach, i still had to stomach cake because it was cake-cutting time! blackforest from bengawan solo.honestly, i realised my mum's has this weird habit of buying blackforest cakes most of the time.
anyway,here's a pic to show my dearest granny!
oh ya, i have been wanting to expose another side of jeanette,and well,finally i have the time and patience to do it today...but before that, a few photos of what i had at cafe cartel on thursday.
as you can see,jeanette treated me to oreo cheesecake and cappucino at cafe cartel to cheer me up.however,i could not finish the cheesecake,so this cheesecake,due to her very own intelligent doing,became distorted,which looks like this:
you would not want to guess what was on that cake. it totally grossed me out.LOL.you see,jeanette does crazy stuff when she gets bored or she is too emotional the previous hour.so,i guess it was the latter that made her do this crazy thing.HAHAS.and the best part,she ate everything in the end. =p
i think i am so gonna get killed by her on monday if she see's this post.ROFL!
@ 16 October 2008 : 10/16/2008 09:56:00 pm
the official last day of doing wr.finally,after a time consuming and energy sapping 11 drafts.yet,the last day of doing wr was the most frustrating.my group was so stressed and worried because the school computer system apparently did not like our wr for being too good (HAHAS) and we could not print it out, despite trying on at least 6 different desktops and at least 10 times. oh my. i had to make like a dozen calls before we could like get it printed out. phew.
talked to jun yan today. well,friend,all i can say in this post is that the final decision is still up to you.no matter what choice you have made,you know whether if you had made the right choice or not. i will support your choice,no worries.
talked to stubborn friend too.well,it's great that you feel better today,otherwise i will be damn sian.and you ah,like suan-ing me so much right? laugh laugh laugh when i cannot retialiate. well,but at least this is a good sign. never seen you laugh so much before. but see,suan-ing me is energy draining,so i am not surprised if you are feeling tired now.(LAUGHS BACK) and i will find a new way to attack you next time,more than just hitting you. for your info,you should feel honoured that i smack you.LOL.anyway,if not for your suan-ing and laughing,you would not have made my day,and you would not have helped to release stress either,especially if i was really emo the day before.serious.
talked to of course,eddie.eh,thanks for helping see the positive side to things.otherwise i will emo and think about that issue all over again.can you like be my personal adivser? HAHA. =p
anyway,just watched amazing race.so there was this detour whereby the teams could either choose to bite open fortune cookies to find the correct slip of paper or clean 15 fishes (that stinks). so most teams chose the cookies and i absolutely love this phrase-- Confucious said: 'If you sleep with an itchy backside,you will wake up with a smelly finger.' lmao.
mum's nagging.so i shall stop using the comp now.need to be a good girl and do chinese..
@ 15 October 2008 : 10/15/2008 08:19:00 pm
it was a really bad day today. people who know me, you know what has happened.
cried a lot today. when i say a lot, i mean A LOT. my eyes practically turned red. well,all i can say that one thing that really disappointed me was chinese. stupid la! can't believe i FAILED zuo wen because i went out of point. omg omg.
anyway, thanks tammy,jeanette,regina and huifang for lending me your shoulders to cry on. thanks for your comforting words and reassurance,especially jeanette, for your reminder of God's goodness and his plan for us, as well as your oreo cheesecake treat.
thanks eddie for keeping telling me to jia you,asking me not to think too much and to take care. you have a really really good listening ear you know?
thanks wai kin for taking time off today to spend time with me to shop and release stress, as well as treating me to ice cream from hagen-daz. and i definitely see your effort in trying to help me calm down and not think too much, as well as cheer me up.
thanks jamie for your hug.
thanks sister and bff for your hug and encouragement.
thanks stubborn friend for just being there and bearing with me.
thanks buddy and levina for just being there.
guys, i know you are really concerned seeing me in this state. don't worry. i will not do anything foolish. i just need some time to get back to having a cheerful disposition. for now, it shall just be an emo me.
@ 14 October 2008 : 10/14/2008 11:02:00 pm
i just felt like typing the lyrics of the song, 'reaching for you', well, so as to calm me down.
bridge: i can't believe the way your love has got a hold on me each morning i wake to find you near
you lift me above my fears and set my feet on solid ground all of my days belong to you
and i breathe in the breath of life that fills my heart you are my all consuming fire
chorus: and i stand here before you in wide open wonder amazed at the glory of you
the power of heaven revealing your purpose in me as i'm reaching for you
(repeat) (repeat chorus)
music plays...
(chorus)
@ : 10/14/2008 05:24:00 pm
SUNDAY: headed to church on sunday--well,only raina,cordelia and i went for service. met raina.worship was great. currently love this song, 'reaching for you'. it is a great song that spoke to me during worship. sermon was not too bad either, and guess what. i went down for altar call today. told this fellow sister of mine about being dry and was feeling very distant from God lately and tears just kept flowing and flowing down my cheek. she prayed for me that i will reconcile my relationship with God, and that i will continue trusting in him for everything, and that his never ending love will continue flowing through my life. after praying, she asked how i felt. and i said that well,i definitely felt closer to God and that i could sense that he really wanted me to be back by his side. in fact, had a little vision of me in this tunnel that was pitch-black, and then a brightly country road and he was leading me through. i infer it as God leading me out of 'my tunnel of darkness' and that there will be light at the end of the day. she told me that she could sense that God was beginning to do a deeper work in my life, and it is only the beginning, meaning, more will come. she told me not to leave Him and continue my walk with Him, no matter how tough or how dark the tunnel is. i spoke to raina after service for a while but could not do so any further. met jia jin after service again, and i was sharing with him and frederick about my whole chem issue, or rather, ranting about the whole issue. i also shared with them about my fears for retaining, but they told me that i will definitely promote and that i should not fear retaining. they were saying that i should continue trusting in the Lord and that since i have already come this far, then it is unlikely that God who opened the door for me to ny will make me retain. well, ultimately, it is still God's plan and no one knows how the future will be like. anyway, jia jin was told me not to forget this:
always remember one thing-whatever God has planned for you are not meant to be obstacles in life, but they are meant to mould you and help you grow as a person.
MONDAY: well, headed to school for one whole day of pw. sat in lt4 and we had like a lecture on OP alone for 2 hours or more. and half the time i was busy messaging stubborn friend. but ai ya, don't want to talk about it. walked to serangoon mrt station with tammy and talked a lot to her. oh but she just had to embarass me in front of someone! met chong yan at around 3 then we headed to orchard to buy my bag! yay! i finally have a black handbag. talked a lot to chong yan as well as i have not met her for a long long time! miss her man. headed home after that and i called darius. apparently he did not do so well for promos,but nonetheless, don't give up friend!
TODAY: well, i went for this talk by the 3 performing arts groups. apparently, they were intending to recruit people for syf. i actually do not mind, but i was worrying about time management especially with a levels next year. also, i think i am quite rusty after having not touch the instrument for about 1 year plus. i miss playing the flute, but never mind. i shall think about it.
collecting results tomorrow. i shall trust in the LORD that i will be alright and everything will turn out fine, and most importantly, that i will PROMOTE! (:
@ 11 October 2008 : 10/11/2008 09:49:00 pm
well, this post is for,someone,someone who is a very good friend of mine.
hey.guess it has been tough talking to you these few days. honestly, i don't know what has been going on in your life. i know you are having some problems with some people, but since you refused to tell me, well there is nothing much that i can do except that to wait for you to tell me, although i do not know when that will be. you know, it was tough for me when i told you that i did feel that you did not give your good friend a chance to help you and advise you when on the other hand you were supporting me throughout my problems. yes, to me, i felt helpless despite knowing that you were not that willing to share yet and that you were not in the mood to share. i know, you know, both of us know that i have been trying hard to help you get your mind off things despite having struggles of my own, and that i hoped to see my good friend stop putting up a brave front in front of me and everyone else and learned to be more open. you once told me that you were really comfortable talking to me, but now i kind of doubt if i make a good listening ear to you. and not meaning to hurt you and make you feel apologetic in any way when you should not be, but i do feel i let you down as your good friend.
it was tough typing all these down. and i hope i need not do it anymore again. because i really do not wish to do it the second time.
@ 10 October 2008 : 10/10/2008 10:38:00 pm
oooh. i just read this email and i felt it was rather funny. check it out!
Kids Are Quick TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America .. MARIA: Here it is. TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ? CLASS: Maria.
TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor? JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?' GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L' TEACHER: No, that's wrong GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water? DONALD: H I J K L M N O. TEACHER: What are you talking about? DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O
TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago. WINNIE: Me!
TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty? GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.' MILLIE: I is.. TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.' MILLIE: All right..... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louis, do you know why his father didn't punish him? LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his? CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested? HAROLD: A teacher
Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past. Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history. Teacher: Why? Student: There is no future in it.
Teacher : Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have? Ted : $10. Teacher : You don't know maths. Ted : You don't know my father!
Girl: Do you love me? Boy: Yes Dear Girl: Would you die for me? Boy: No, mine is undying love
Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg. Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.
Teacher: 'Where were you born?' Student: 'Singapore, Sir.' Teacher: 'Which part?' Student: 'All of me, Sir
Teacher: 'How come you do not comb your hair?' Ah Kow: 'No comb, Sir.' Teacher: 'Use your dad's then.' Ah Kow: 'No hair, Sir.'
@ : 10/10/2008 09:43:00 pm
today was well, service learning day.
started the day off with some talk. and then another talk. and then break. too lazy to describe what the talks were about. went to lt4 for the longest seminar among the 3 lts. well,but it was rather interesting. think i would not mind being a volunteer in ACRES in the future.
headed to bishan to meet teng,sh and poo for lunch. had my favourite chicken pepper lunch at the foodcourt. (glees) walked around for a while and then i headed down to orchard, expecting to find regina somewhere. i only managed to find out that she was in plaza sing when i just stepped out of the train. HAHA. so well, i was kind of alone and had my first shopping trip, alone! headed to borders to get tammy's book for her, and was trying hard to decide if i should purchase my 6 dollars pencil case. well, ended up heading to marks and spencer to window shop and then i decided to buy the pencil case. yay! went to shaw house to help my dear regina check the movie timings, well, she and the rest wanted to catch 'Connected'. then i walked to far east plaza (again!) and shopped. in fact, this time round to far east plaza, i managed to source out quite a few bargains, much better than the last trip there. i saw a bag for 24 bucks, and it is damn damn nice! if i could go back one more time this month, hopefully i will get the bag. bought a bag for 10 bucks at the shop, which was actually the same design as the one ordered online, but it was the colour i wanted and cheaper too! :D headed home after that and well, slacked and rested.
okay i am bored. and so i koped this quiz from tam's blog, which was like posted ages ago.
Name 20 people whom you can think of right now.Don't read the questions till you've named 20 people.At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this. 1) zhiyuan 2) tammy 3) jeanette 4) regina 5) huifang 6) justin 7) charles 8) minghui 9) janice 10) raina 11) jiajin 12) eddie 13) jocelyn 14) qianyong 15) huiteng 16) chuxuan 17) waikin 18) lingling 19) chongyan 20) jamie
Q1:How did you meet 14? she was my sec 3 & 4 classmate
Q2:What would you do if you've never met 1? i would never have such a good friend
Q3:What if 9 and 20 dated? er.they don't even know each other?
Q4:Will 16 and 17 date? apparently, they are not each other's types.
Q5:Describe 3? my half-sister,dark, and a super good pianist!
Q7:What would you do if 18 confess to you that he/she likes you? i will faint.
Q8:Who is 9 going out with? as single as i am.
Q9:When was the last time you talk to 13? wow.that will be like about a month ago.
Q10:Who is 2's favourite band/singer? hahas. honestly, i have no freaking idea.
Q11:Would you ever date 4? gosh,no! i will become a full fledged lesbian. HAHA.
Q12:Would you ever date 1? that will depend in the future. LOL.
Q13:Is 19 single? should be.
Q14:Would you ever be in relationship with 11? er...that will be interesting to someone that knows the both of us.
Q15:School of 3? nanyang jc!
Q16:Where does 6 live? potong pasir.
Q17:What is your favourite thing of 5? she's a joke. KIDDING. =p
Q18:Have you ever seen 10 naked? gosh,no!
lazy to choose 5 people la.
@ 09 October 2008 : 10/09/2008 09:31:00 pm
back to school again.
well, i kind of dragged my feet to school today with laziness, thinking that it was going to be another LOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNGGGGG day ahead without being too productive. plus, i was feeling sleepy because i only slept at 12 plus, trying to make sure that someone was not feeling too down and usept and made that someone sleep early. school started off with this eric guy teaching us interview and grooming skills. well, he was quite interesting and what he said was kind of related to me, especially with what has just happened. stubborn friend smsed me and asked if everything sounded familiar, and obviously i agreed. eric left me this statement that totally reaffirmed my faith in God that i will promote.
'when you want something badly, the whole world will somehow conspire to help you get it.'
and so i believed that God will make arrangements for me to promote.(:
had a break and went for grooming workshop.apparently, it got so boring that jiayan,levina,minghui and i were self-entertaining. but i still listened to a few parts ok.
lunch break. this was when majority of the people ran off (its a better word than pon). saw eddie sitting opposite us, a few tables away, and 3/4 of the time he when he saw me he was like 'gui ah! bu ke yi kan. got nightamre'. what the.. so i went over and smack him till no end. apparently i think that's how justin know that i have a lot of strength. oops. had a very difficult time eating hor fun because of my braces, and i think took a record 20 to 30 minutes to eat up that whole plate. slacked and slacked and then saw stubborn friend. koped his mocha ice blended, and he refused to tell me the stuff he was supposed to tell. that's why i gave him that nice name. -.- constantly probed him and proded him but he didn't budge. hai ya. so i complained to jamie and yi jia that he bullied me. HAHA.
went to hall for another boring talk again. no offence to the speaker, but i guess not many people were listening and were indulging in their own world of fun. apparently i was having a great time laughing sitting next to amanda and levina. headed to ct classroom after that, did not do much excpt discuss pw because i forced jianfan to go to 5-35 to find us. hee. buddy and i headed to heartland mall to window shop for a while. saw some nice clothes and shoes. but i especially liked going into that bookshop. the rows of shelves were filled with rows and rows of books, and you could just like get so fascinated by the amount of books and how walking through the books makes you feel so surreal. headed home after that and slacked.
okay.got to go do pw now.again.
@ 08 October 2008 : 10/08/2008 08:26:00 pm
pw-ed in the morning. and as usual, mr ong jian fan didn't come. toopid la. he owes us 3 meals each now. i don't care la. roar.
anyway, went out with tam to town today. tam thought she lost her wallet so she was like late. she called and was like :'lynette, i think i lost my wallet.' me: HUH?! tam: 'ya..wait wait wait. i ask the station master 1st' *hangs up* 5 mins later........ tam: 'lynette! i think i found my wallet! it was in my bag,right underneath.' me: sian face. laughs. headed to hereen at 1st, and oh my gosh. we came to this store called concept 109, and they had this VERY UBER NICE 2 piece clothing. it was so suitable on me, but the price was 63.20 after discount!!! (eyes open WIDELY). went for dental appointment at outram park after that. changed my braces colour to neon green! but now my teeth hurts because of the tightening and the rubber band. argh. cam-whored and talked a lot to tam in the mrt station while waiting for the train and just nice we saw regina. headed to far east plaza because tam was trying to find a similar clothing. walked and walked and co-incidentally, i met stubborn friend, lilan, mingwei, chiwei and elysia. the usual gang of people with stubborn friend. hahas. i did not know that they were still in town! thought they went somewhere else..continued walking after that and tam left for her stuff. headed to isetan after that with regina and she was trying on the limited edition shoes, pretty with a very 'pretty' price as well. headed to wheelock place-borders. i saw this very nice metal pencil case for only 6 bucks!! oh my. should have taken a photo of it. never mind. if i have the chance i shall go and get it. went to marks and spencer after that and saw my favourite almond biscuits and butter mint sweets. went back home after that and talked to regina as well. man, both tammy and regina rock! i simply love them. girls, i know you have faith in me that i will promote. and yes, i shall have the confidence (note: jun yan. the magic word 'confidence' (:) that i wil PROMOTE TO JC2!
love ya, regina and tammy!
@ 07 October 2008 : 10/07/2008 11:56:00 pm
just felt like posting again to especially thank some people
firstly, wai kin. well, thank you so much for trying to cheer me up and helping me to see the whole situation in the right way. although it does not sound nice to hear the truth, but it was good that you told me everything you could, and i would not forget this whole conversation i had with you:
waikin says: woman! lynette.laughter says: ya waikin says: WHAT THE HELL YOU DOING ONLINE NO SLEEP!? =x lynette.laughter says: i am not in a good mood lynette.laughter says: can't slp lynette.laughter says: just got home too waikin says: haha who disturbed youuuu =/ lynette.laughter says: not disturb lynette.laughter says: its my results waikin says: aww why ? lynette.laughter says: failed chem paper 2 n 3 miserably lynette.laughter says: they gave out the toopid papers right after the last paper tdy waikin says: lol that's dumb waikin says: the teacher screwed up la =x lynette.laughter says: not the teacher lynette.laughter says: the whole department waikin says: zzz waikin says: aiya don get so disheartened everyone elses failed too ma (: lynette.laughter says: i am very upset because i put in a lot of effort lynette.laughter says: and this was the shit i got waikin says: !!! waikin says: woah waikin says: i can see you are very upset lynette.laughter says: duh waikin says: no waikin says: i mena waikin says: VERY! waikin says: well~ waikin says: if you need a listening ear, im here you know =/ lynette.laughter says: ya lynette.laughter says: think i will msg you ltr lynette.laughter says: don't really feel like talking now waikin says: haha ok lo, don do anything stupid =/ lynette.laughter says: i won't lynette.laughter says: go read my blog lynette.laughter says: http://my-life-film.blogspot.com lynette.laughter says: i just posted waikin says: well~ waikin says: your life aint the worse yet, woman lynette.laughter says: i know lynette.laughter says: but its really DOWN waikin says: you've just gotta keep trying you know. lynette.laughter says: i have done it like 10039752348723 times lynette.laughter says: i feel so.........tired waikin says: you need time off this matter. take a break waikin says: don bother your head silly over this you know =x lynette.laughter says: i can't stop thinking about it waikin says: dont think then lynette.laughter says: can't lynette.laughter says: stop lynette.laughter says: thinking waikin says: you're being retarded you know. what 's done is done and YES t even harder. accept that fact graciously and tell yourhe results' are out and YA you have failed, but that DOESNT gives you adequate excuses to stop trying waikin says: alamak waikin says: lol waikin says: type wrong lei waikin says: -.- waikin says: walau waikin says: i dowan say liao waikin says: stupid com waikin says: -.- waikin says: zzz lynette.laughter says: then don't say bah waikin says: well~ waikin says: you can cry bucket loads and that wont help a bit you know. lynette.laughter says: ya its like the total opposite of what others say lynette.laughter says: they say crying will help me feel better lynette.laughter says: at least waikin says: cry, yes, wet the floor, yes, waste tissu, yes, change the fact, oh no. waikin says: you've gotta live with it lynette.laughter says: i am lynette.laughter says: its just hard to accept now waikin says: then you better hurry up. cos you are wasting your own time if you dont move on you know. lynette.laughter says: ya i know lynette.laughter says: there are times when you just don't feel like facing reality lynette.laughter says: it sucks lynette.laughter says: but i know you still have to accept it waikin says: ya. waikin says: so im just allowing to cry just tonight. waikin says: tml's a new day! lynette.laughter says: ya lynette.laughter says: guess so waikin says: CANNOT! waikin says: IT IS A NEW DAY! lynette.laughter says: ok lynette.laughter says: ya it is a new day tml waikin says: don fu yan wo ok waikin says: =x lynette.laughter says: i don't know la! waikin says: YOU. think over what i say. I. shall think what can i say lynette.laughter says: okay lynette.laughter says: i will
you know, i didn't know you are one person with a great listening ear, and a good adviser.thanks a lot.
secondly, jun yan. although you can't say much, but you reminded me of what i told you before. having confidence is half the battle won. i really appreciate your effort in trying to cheer me up. and i really do appreciate that last sentence dedicated to me. it was just a short sentence, but at that time it meant a lot to me.
thirdly, janice. sister, i know you are going through whatever i am going through now. sorry for making you hear all these crap coming out of me. i feel so apologetic towards you. thank you so much for telling me that the teachers out there are just giving every jc chem student a hard time just to make me feel better. and thank you for your reminder to keep going and continue praying to God and trusting in him.
you guys have tried your best in cheering me up even though i could not really cheer up. thank you so much guys.
@ : 10/07/2008 10:21:00 pm
promos is over.finally.
i don't sound happy when i should be.
ironic but no. i don't.all thanks to that whole department which insisted on being a wet blanket.
just imagine.you have been walking on a long road of journey.that journey has been filled with many obstacles, setbacks, successes, laughter, disappointments, anger, frustrations and stress. you reach the end of the road, knowing that there will be light at the end of the day, and guess what. when you are about to reach the end, the whole world just crashes down upon your head. sad, you might say. but that is how my whole life is now. you feel like giving up, but you know when you give up, you are going to disappoint the people who have been supporting you throughout this journey, especially the friends who have heard your cries. your promises to people appear to have been broken, although you badly have wanted very much to keep it. people's expectations of you have been dashed, just like how a glass shatters into bits and pieces and strewn all over the floor. you try to hide your sadness, so as to not affect the people around you who are feeling the same way as you do, remaining optimistic and cheerful, yet feeling bitter and upset inside.
my life= messy.
sometimes i wonder if i had made the right choice in going to nanyang. i feel so stressed being in that competitive school where everyone is a mugger and everybody seems so intelligent. poly may have been a better road for me, who knows. i know it's wrong of me to question God's choice of school for me, but i just can't help having an inferiority complex to the people around me and wonder why didn't God give me an easier time in some other average schools. i know jc life is tough, poly too. but somehow it just takes a toll on me.
on a slightly lighter note, thanks stubborn friend for keeping me accompany today. thanks buddy for listening to my troubles. thanks tam, hf and regina for being there when my tears fell. thanks jamie for that comforting hug. thanks ying chen and louis kor for asking how i was. and a big thanks to my clique for having dinner with me tonight to get my mind off for a while.
the end.
@ 03 October 2008 : 10/03/2008 10:49:00 am
man.i am SICK.
being sick,well, to put it crudely, it sucks.
anyway, went to elaine's house on wed for pw..and i had a terrible sore throat. i was like thinking : 'with my 'sexy' voice can i even talk much during pw? a lot of things to discuss..' and guess what, i did not talk much and that jian fan just had to ask, lynette why are you so quiet. if i am quiet means there is something wrong with me la dude. -.- (makes me sound like some noisy person) pw-ed and msn-ed the whole morning and afternoon..and i had this stupid convo with wai kin. i was like asking him about some activities that can be included in our project, then he thought all along that this project really had to be executed and he was like ''WHOA YOU DIE LIAO. SERIOUSLY DIE.' for at least 5 times. until he asked 'is the project going to be executed?' and i said 'no', then he was like 'CHEY'. how lame can this guy get?
dinner-ed at seafood paradise in defu lane. apparently my mum and uncle just had to order all the food that i could NOT eat. fried squid, fried chicken, chilli crab, chilli kangkong and tofu( okay i could eat tofu,but it was with the heaty pork floss!) so i risked having a worse sore throat and ate everything except the chicken, and drank at least 5 cups (those small kind) of chrysanthemum tea..wai kin messaged me and was like asking me to go down to the canary bar at clarke quay to find him. and the best part was that he knew that i was sick. then he started complaining about being lazy to go home and sleep, then he asked me to come and fetch him. -.- if i had a licence i may have considered doing so, then he was like 'WHY DON'T YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE'. LOL.
i was cooped up at home yesterday as i was still feeling quite sick..so irritated..did not do much except to study chem and rest..and stone..
ai ya..got to go study already..shan't blog!
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